I hate redoing work. It feels so pointless and I've had some dark moments of anger thinking about the prospects of pulling these beams back off, pulling the posts out and worst of all having to order more and essentially throw the others away. That's what really galls me, the wastage. So much for having a small environmental footprint, how many trees is that?
With that going on Natasha suggested we put it out of minds for a day and get into putting on rafters where there are no veranda related issues. So today has actually been fantastic, we got 7 rafters up and this really changes the way the house looks. What a shift in vibe, it feels like we're still moving forward and maybe all is not lost! So tomorrow I'll get back into the veranda scenario, do it twice as fast because I've done it before and already cut the beams to size and then re-declare the holes done. Or maybe I shouldn't tempt fate.
So what it comes down to is this: this is a journey we're on and if we were up for a safe and predictable path with little personal growth we would have paid someone else to build for us. But we chose to show what is possible when we say we're going to do something - that however we make it there, it can be done. One year ago I don't think I'd ever used a hammer for anything more than whacking in a picture hook. Now the majority of the structure of our house is complete. That's just totally leftfield when looked at like that.
We are up for a journey with bumps, twists, turns as well as fantastic scenery, euphoric accomplishment and enriched relationships. We're getting it all.